Oh man what a day it was! Let’s see if I can sum this up:
If you read my previous post 33 week update/preeclampsia, you may remember that I was readmitted to the hospital on 11/04/19 with hoped of making it to 11/15/19 (35 weeks gestation).
On November 9th Brooks failed one of his daily NST test (due to decreased fetal movement). The nurse told me not to panic and that they were going to order an emergency BPP to be done so they could check on him. Thankfully everything was okay and they told me he was just being stubborn.
On November 11th, he failed again. The nurse kept me hooked to the monitor for about 3 hours trying to get Brooks to cooperate. When he wouldn’t, I assumed the doctor would order another BPP like he did on Saturday. At 3:40 pm the nurse came in and said “well, it looks like we are having a baby today.” Talk about a crazy moment! Michael and I thought she was joking until she sat down her supplies and immediately began prepping me for surgery. Michael stepped out to call our parents and let them know and by the time he came back to the room, I was getting in the wheelchair to be taken back to surgery. Our perfect little boy was born one hour and one minute later. 11/11/19 at 4:41 pm weighing 4 lbs and 10 oz and 17 1/2 inches long. He was born at 34 weeks and 4 days.
Because he was early, he was immediately taken to the NICU and I was taken to recovery. Once in recovery, they started magnesium drip for 24 hours to prevent seizures. They wheeled me through the NICU to glance at Brooks on my way to recovery. I was on heavy pain meds but I remember thinking he was the prettiest thing I had ever seen.
24 hours later, I was able to get out of bed finally (after the magnesium was stopped) and Michael wheeled me down to the NICU to hold Brooks for the first time. I made it through the whole day without crying until this moment.
Brooks came into the world breathing on his own but he needed oxygen to help him regulate his breathing. He also needs a feeding tube since he didn’t know how to drink from a bottle yet.
14 days later, he finally got to come home. It was the longest/hardest 14 days of my life. Leaving the hospital without my baby was the hardest thing I have ever done. I cried all the way home. I finally stopped crying and the song “even though I’m leaving” came on and I started crying again. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to listen to that song again without thinking of that day.
Brooks has been home with us for 10 days now and we are completely smitten by him. He is a constant reminder that we beat PCOS and infertility. ❤️
Baby update: baby is doing great! He moves and kicks all day long and it is the sweetest feeling (sometimes, it brings me to tears). Dad got to feel his kicks for the first time today!
Pregnancy update: this pregnancy is flying by and I have to admit, it has been pretty easy thus far. Our next big milestone is going to be the glucose test this month. Prayers that all goes well!
We reached viability week this week! This is a huge milestone for us!
Picture is of my 23 week bump (because I don’t have any others to share 🤦🏼♀️)
We had our anatomy scan yesterday (19w5d) and baby was absolutely perfect! He was bouncing around everywhere. Heart rate was 153 and baby weighs 8oz. We also officially have a name for baby: Jameson “Brooks” ❤️
Our gender reveal was last Saturday and we found out our miracle baby is a BOY! As much as I wanted a girl, I am ecstatic about having a boy. I am praying for a brown hair, brown eyed boy who looks just like daddy. 💙
Baby update: we had our first appointment with the OB on Tuesday! It was my first time hearing the heartbeat and it was the most beautiful sound. Michael had to work in Texas so my mom went with me to the appointment. Everything was great with baby and we have our gender scan scheduled for June 29th! The doctor confirmed my due date is December 19th.
Pregnancy update: I have craved subway everyday for a week. I have literally eaten a turkey sub (heated of course) 4 times in the last 6 days. I still haven’t had any sickness! One of my least favorite things about being pregnant: being emotional. I am not really a crying person and the smallest thing will make me cry right now.
Baby update: we had our 10 week appointment Tuesday and baby is measuring right on schedule! Heart rate was 167. It was our last visit at the fertility clinic! Such a huge milestone but so bittersweet! I have tapered my progesterone down to once per day and I will stop completely this week!
Pregnancy update: I have had back and neck pain terribly over the last week! Thankfully a quick visit to the chiropractor helped tremendously! I have had a major craving for “side” foods: rice, mashed potatoes, macaroni, pasta salad, etc.
Baby update: we had our 9w4d check on Monday and the doctor says baby is right on track! It was my first time getting to actually see the baby move (thanks to a little Dr.Pepper). Heart rate was 176. My progesterone was 18.97. The doctor said I am ready to start tapering off my progesterone pills! I am super excited but also super nervous (if I could take them until delivery I would) but he says I don’t need them anymore! That is definitely a victory but it brings on a whole new wave of worry.
Pregnancy update: still no morning sickness (thank goodness). Still extremely tired and extra hungry. But other than that, everything is good!
We announced our baby news on Facebook on Sunday! I also had several people reach out to me and tell me about their infertility struggles and it made me happy to know that those people wanted to open up to me about something to hard.
Baby update: We had our 8 week check up today! Baby is doing great. My progesterone is rising (17.62) and baby’s heart rate was 170!
Pregnancy update: I bought my first pair of maternity jeans last week. I have never been more comfortable! Still craving all things spicy and haven’t had any sickness yet!
Sunday was my first Mother’s Day and my husband spoiled me by taking me to the beach for the weekend. He also bought me a 3 heart necklace (a heart for me, a heart for him, and a heart for baby). I cried several times throughout the day. I cried happy tears for me. I cried sad tears for all of those who still long to be a mother.
Baby update: baby is measuring right on schedule with a heart rate of 140 today. My progesterone has dropped a little but the doctor says that is normal. I am still on the progesterone suppositories 3 times a day.
Pregnant update: I have craved all things spicy (especially garlic and bbq). I have been nauseous several times but haven’t thrown up yet! My clothes are feeling way tighter but I haven’t gained any weight yet. The exhaustion and fatigue is probably my worst symptom. I have been in bed every night by 7 pm (but I have been sleeping like a B A B Y).
I’ll post another update next Monday after my appointment.
I had my second ultrasound this morning and baby is measuring 6 weeks and 4 days with a heart rate of 120. The feeling of seeing that heartbeat on the screen is a feeling I will never be able to explain. Being pregnant still feels so surreal to me.
I have worried this whole time about the baby not having a heartbeat (infertility will make you worry about EVERYTHING when you’re pregnant) so seeing the heartbeat today was a huge milestone for me. I feel so relieved. The doctor also said the risk of miscarriage decreases significantly once the heartbeat is detected.
I go back for my next ultrasound and progesterone check next Monday! No more beta testing now that we have a heartbeat. Progesterone was 20.16 today and the nurse referred to it as “perfect.” 🎉