For Him

Over the last year, I have prayed a lot. I mean A LOT. I have prayed that God will bless us with a child. I have prayed that God will show me a sign if it’s not meant to be. I have prayed so many prayers I couldn’t possibly list them all. However, the most common prayer I have prayed is “if not for me, then do it for him”. You see, My husband is amazing. I truly believe he hung the moon. He is everything I am not. He is kind, funny, selfless, and patient. He works so hard for our family and I know he will spoil our future child just as he spoils me. He deserves to have all of his dreams come true.

I often wonder what type of mother I will be but I never wonder what type of father he will be. I KNOW he will be the best father. I am sad that I may never get to be a mother but I am devastated that he may never get to be a father. I would take all of the hurt if it meant he didn’t have to feel one ounce of sadness. He shouldn’t have to suffer because my body is broken.

God, please bless us with a baby. If not for me, then do it for him. ❤️

“If I could take away his pain… If there was a way to transfer it from his soul onto mine. I would take it. Without hesitation I would take it all. Maybe that’s how you know you love someone.”-Rachel Van Dyken


  1. Mary · June 12, 2018

    Oh my! This touches my heart the most! And while I can tell from your writing what a great man and future father your husband is, this post shows what an amazing woman you are! And you will be an amazing mother one day! I have no doubts! I too used to pray constantly for those things and God for a Time was not my friend. But he truly knows best and although I was so undeserving of his love and grace I have the best gift I could have ever imagined


  2. Shazro · September 4, 2018

    Never ever give up praying, sometimes God does things in HIS time, he knows the right time. So till then, keep the faith and do what you are doing.
    “Where is your wife Sarah?” they asked him. “There in the tent,” he replied. One of them said, “I will return to you about this time next year, and Sarah will then have a son.” Sarah was listening at the entrance of the tent, just behind him. Now Abraham and Sarah were old, advanced in years, and Sarah had stopped having her menstrual periods. So Sarah laughed to herself and said, “Now that I am worn out and my husband is old, am I still to have sexual pleasure?” But the LORD said to Abraham: “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Will I really bear a child, old as I am?’ Is anything too marvelous for the LORD to do? At the appointed time, about this time next year, I will return to you, and Sarah will have a son.”💞


  3. Shazro · September 4, 2018

    Never ever give up lovely, sometimes God wants to be our only ray of hope, just trust him. When things are hard for you, just close your eyes and imagine how he must have suffered on the cross and the pain HE must have gone through. Hugsss💞


  4. isabelrn · November 8, 2018

    wow this was beautiful. I was very much convicted of my own selfishness in reading this; it’s so easy to get caught up in focusing on what we want and how we want to be mothers but we forget about our husbands and what kinds of fathers they will be. Thank you for the challenge to adjust my prayers to reflect this.
    -thanks also for the follow! I look forward to continuing to read your story though I hope for your sake it is not a much longer one on this side. ❤


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